Phoenix

“Where do you see yourself in five years?”

Why do interviewers always ask this question?

Why don’t they ask “a year from now?”

Or what about “three years from now?”

Three years ago, give or take, I was a fresh nurse,

Interviewing for work to further my career.

They asked me that question, and I gave some great answer I’m sure.

Three years later, and I took a job for family, that no longer feels like family.

Three years later, and my career is decimated unless I get my boss’s recommendation.

My job is destroying my career.

Now, it’s time to rise from the destruction,

Like a phoenix.

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My Bed

My bed is warm and comfortable,

A comfort in the cold mornings.

The world is cold and a traitor,

Pulling me forth with promises of greatness,

Only to pull them away,

And replace them with doubt.

Still, I rise.

I face the challenges of the day,

I fight against the odds,

And hope for greatness anyway.

Rise

Whenever I feel stuck,

I remember that I can change.

I don’t have to stay where I am,

Continue to do what I can’t stand,

Pretend to like those that don’t like me.

Yes, sometimes I get low,

And things get dark,

But like the flowers that bloom

Once winter has ended,

I am not buried in darkness.

I am a seed.

I will rise with grace and wisdom.

I will become more,

Than what I once was.

You Want to Be a Writer? Act Like One

These past few weeks, the entire month of February, has been strange for me. I had a tonsillectomy on the 31st of January and practically all of February was spent in bed recovering, or scrambling to get homework done as my semester for my bachelors program was winding down.

Yes, I know, I’m excellent at scheduling things and procrastination.

This strange time warp (thank you liquid Lortab for keeping the pain at bay and helping me catch up on much needed sleep, even if the nightmares were terrifying) left little time for me to write, and write coherently.

I was back at work for three days before this first cold whammied me into another week of bed rest. But it gave me a little more time to think and process, and yes, write!

I’ve been listening to a few new podcasts lately, all about writing and being a writer. There were a few that talked about whether or not a writer can call themselves a writer and what the criteria was or should be. Should you have a book published? A famous column in a newspaper? Can you be called a writer if only one other person, or no one has read any works?

I have always called myself a writer. I’ve started and finished several novels, short stories, plays and poems, not to mention blog posts and forum posts here and there. As far as I am concerned, I am a writer.

But over these past few months, I haven’t really been acting like a writer. I haven’t had that drive to finish something, or post something, or even think about writing in the least.

I am very pleased to say that today for the first time in a long while, I pulled out a short story that I wrote years ago and edited it. I’m not going to lie, I struggled to get motivated, to actually edit and not get distracted by the internet, or flash games, or more podcasts and posts about writing, but once I got into it and started, it was much easier.

I am a writer, and I am going to act like it.